I’ve been working on this painting of the full moon on the Island for the past few days. Certain things have been feeling heavy though the full moon has been so beautiful and I was glad to see it shining over the water. People and feelings from the past have been coming back and I have, as always, felt the need to protect my peace above all. Sometimes I feel like I have been protecting my peace too much and it’s caused me to feel isolated, but I only have so much time and so much energy and the things I really want to devote myself to, the books and paintings, require that I prioritize them. Anyway, after a few days spent in self-imposed isolation, mostly obsessing about this painting, but also about my next book, and feeling some pretty strong full moon blues, tomorrow I plan to actually go to a party. Hopefully being social will be more fun than the last few times I tried it.
