Today I got stressed about tax season – which this year is more complicated as I now have the company – and about other annoyances mostly to do with scheduling and other stuff I’m not good at. I was kind of hoping the feeling of panic that’s been with me ever since I started my own business would have subsided by now. It’s gotten better, but it’s still there, this feeling that I might mess up royally, and that it’s presumptuous to even think I can make this work. Today I tried to push it aside, to compartmentalize as best I can (spoiler alert: I can’t!), to address issues as they arise, and in between dealing with them, to try to actually enjoy life. I also decided I needed to focus on a few things that give me a sense of order. So I had an eye exam and ordered new glasses. I also baked bread, just for myself this time, and the crust turned out really crusty. I watched the Democratic debate, because like, seriously, the primary is around the corner, and (drumroll!) I went on a date with a man who actually seemed nice. It’s a first date, so let’s not get our hopes up, but, whatever follow-up there is or isn’t to this first meeting, it’s still good to know the potential is there to, every now and then, actually meet someone I might actually fancy.


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